Great minds want to know why I chose to doordash at this moment in my life?

After sacrificing my pride for the love of my kids and wife in the last 10 years as a miserable stay-at-home dad, I thought it was time to get my feet a little wet in the employment arena. Hell the last job I had was during the iPhone 4S era.

I gave my heart, soul, sanity, mental health in struggling mightily to raise the three kids. I feel hard and often. There’s no immigrant playbook on how to raise kids in America. I often felt so out of place with all these rich doctors, engineers, lawyers, and other very successful moms and dad’s at the elementary and middle schools. For the sake of my kids, I’d eat my pride/shit to try to make the fake small talk, coordinate with other moms playdates and birthday parties. No matter how hard I tried to fit in, I failed miserably. But make no mistake about it is that it was my deep love for our family that kept me going.

Also, some trivial days would capture my attention. Tuesdays (T-Mobile Tuesdays) where I could get some free merch or food and Wednesdays where the grocery stores would start their sales. 

Yet, after all the utter chaos, mental meltdowns, anger, sadness, it was the presence of a legendary woman who is the absolute anchor and glue of our unstable ship; your mother. Yes, I struggled a lot and still do. After my cancer, I have been left with many, many deficits which I am having a hard time accepting. Your mother saved me countless times from burning fires and rescued me from the deepest of all sorrows. She saved our family multiple times.

Yes back to my doordash. I made $4.64 in one hour. It kind of reminded me of my Taco Bell days in 1987 working as an immigrant with bad English cleaning the bathrooms and floors making $3.35 per hour. In a sense, life has come full circle for me. Life is very short and extremely fragile. I smell the mortal sense of calm and acceptance of my makers’ will. Naseeb was Qesmant. (Faith and Destiny).

Let there be NO doubt that I love you Ameer Gibran. I always have and always will. Stay Hungry and Stay Humble!!!!!